Thursday 25 June 2015

Sacrifice

To give up something valued for the sake of other considerations

What’s the biggest sacrifice you’ve ever made?

I might say that I swapped the joy of physical closeness with family and friends in America for Skype (plus other assorted technology) when I relocated to another country, though there have been numerous benefits that have balanced the scale with sacrifice.

I was thrust into thinking about sacrifice while waiting for the bus the other evening, having decided to check my email. (A three-minute wait and I’m all over the mobile; how our lives have changed.) I had a note from a friend whose mother had passed away; a friend who I met 30-odd years ago and who despite the considerable distance between us has always been someone whose friendship I have cherished. (You know the type. Pause to be thankful for them.)  Yes, I cried quietly. I had a moment of frustration of being too far away. And then I had a ton of memories of our spending time together crowding my mind; there were smiles and smirks amid the tears.

A number of years ago my friend moved to take care of aging parents; attempts to manage their issues from miles away were difficult for all of them, and particularly for someone who wasn’t keen on flying. Pause. Imagine giving up life as you once knew it—the great apartment in the cool neighbourhood, a steady stream of work, friends you got to see on a frequent basis, your own space where the only limitations are those you create  . . .

There are a lot of intangibles to a sacrifice of that magnitude. And then there are the financial costs and the emotional strain of dealing with illness, decisions, adjustment, and uncertainty. Those all sit heavily on top of the realisation that all things once familiar are now physically distant and need to be re-established if not for any reason but for one’s sanity. It is a burden I suspect too heavy for most shoulders to bear.

I didn’t get the chance to have to deal with such sacrifice with my parents; they separated when I was in my teens and my father was not part of my life after the divorce decree but to discuss the odd bill here and there he was obligated to pay for the children he cast aside. It was never a pleasant phone call, and after the youngest turned 18 he was done. My mother died too young; in the last year of her life she required more care, but that was spread among some of the six of us. Frankly I never saw it as a burden—every moment I spent with mother was cherished, truly. (And it’s not just because she would tell me I was the best driver of my siblings; she did balance her praise with observations such as I had very ugly feet.) And financially, well, my mother fed me and kept a roof over my head until I was almost 25; she remarked when I decided to go to NYU that she could only feed and shelter me, and that was all I needed. Any contribution I made to her comfort was just payback, and probably not in the amount she provided me over the almost 40 years we had together.

I admire my friend in ways I can’t possibly articulate. We all make choices; there are always options. Putting your own desires and needs aside for the sake of others takes courage, strength, resilience, faith . . . and probably a whole lot more. We all say we’d do it; there are those who have lived it, on their own and with only their inner strength to remain sane, whole, and as happy as is possible.


I believe in karma. I hope that, in my next life, we are privileged to meet again and I can smile at the good fortune that surrounds someone who most certainly deserves it.

Saturday 20 June 2015

Around the world in 52 days

It’s been a while since I’ve paused to post, but forgive me; here’s why:


And oh what fun I’ve had . . . I have piled on the miles from Manila to Hong Kong to Reykjavik to Edinburgh to no less than four states in a ten-day swing through America.  The journeys covered several airlines (Cathay Pacific wins the award for the best, United for the absolute worst) and a few trains, trams, and buses. I highly recommend the Virgin train up to Edinburgh, where the view of scenic Berwick-upon-Tweed is absolutely gorgeous—you can glimpse the blue-green sea that would be enticing if it wasn’t freezing!



I don’t travel often for business, and when it rains, it pours! What wonderful memories of each journey—the wonderful, generous, friendly people of the Philippines; the vibrant, modern, expat-friendly city of Hong Kong; a bit of R&R in Iceland, enjoying the never-ending daylight; a quick stop to Edinburgh that was beautifully green in the sunshine, my second trip there but a completely different experience from the rain-soaked first visit; and, finally, America the beautiful. In England again, I’m spending a few days on the Isle of Wight after several weekends away—and I must say, it’s a wonderful homecoming.

First there was Manila, and I must say it’s the Filipino people who make their country wonderful—hands down—though there are some lovely areas I was able to visit on my one free day. I took a city tour with Bea, a native, and we travelled by air-conditioned van (as it was well into the 90s F) through the “old” and new parts of Manila. Remember that the city was destroyed by the US bombing campaign in 1945 to end Japanese military occupation; MacArthur won the battle, but Manila was utterly devastated. Intramuros, the oldest part of the walled city, has been rebuilt and is a lovely area to stroll with its historic feel, cathedral, and the old fort.
  Mother of pearl windows in the Plaza St Luiza complex at Intramuros.

It’s a city of many levels of economy—our guide took us through the area coined “Beverly Hills” for its gated communities for the uber-rich and mostly foreign owners, but we needed to go through some of the poorest areas which had me clutching my throat: children bathing in the street from buckets of water being poured over them; tiny, tin-roofed shacks packed forlornly one after another; narrow, pot-holed roads that the city simply isn’t interested in paving. And yet just a few miles away there is a mega-mall filled with shops of every economic scale. It’s no different anywhere, including places in America, and yet the localised destitution goes unnoticed as long as the tourists still come.

The food in the Philippines can be challenging—you need to appreciate meat and rice, though finding a place to have fish is not impossible. I had a few “authentic” meals for lunch and dinner, which mostly came from the office canteen since I was working the 2-to-10 pm shift, and Bea and I had a lovely lunch that included delicious vegetables and squid. I did not, dear friends, attempt the balut . . . for the uninitiated, it’s a boiled duck (or chicken) egg with a partial embryo inside. Go ahead, Google it. The photos will be enough to turn you off!

After the Philippines I had a four-day stopover in Hong Kong and absolutely loved the city—like nothing I’d seen before with the tall, narrow buildings huddled together, narrow side streets teeming with shops and restaurants and people—a mix of Chinese and the world as the ex-pat community is huge (second, I think, only to Dubai), a fantastic mass transit system that is incredibly easy to use. I most enjoyed the tram because it was a bit clunky and slow and gave a lovely view as it snaked through the city. You get on at the back and pay on your way out in the front—which I learned the hard way and paid twice. The underground is modern and well-mapped to easily find your way, with touch screens on a map to choose your destination without having to know how to spell it. My faux pas was trying to get through the turnstile with my hotel key card, which had the attendant laughing—the card you get from the ticket vending machine, much like an Oyster card, is hard plastic and of the same dimensions as the hotel key.


You can get anything you want to eat in Hong Kong; just walk one of the main roads in Soho and you’ll see Argentinian, Belgian, New York deli, Mexican, Middle Eastern, Australian, well, you name it. I had a few good tips from a colleague and did well to mix Chinese with tapas and enjoyed it all, perhaps my favourite a little place called The Monogamous Chinese. It’s a great city for singles—safe and easy to navigate, and many of the restaurants had bars that served food so you don’t have to sit at a table alone, though I never have trouble with that (and it’s become a bit easier with technology in hand).


After spending a few days back home Tim and I went to Reykjavik for a long weekend to have him speak at the Bar European Group conference on the rights of the accused while I reunited with the WAGs from previous BEG trips (you may remember jaunts to Athens and Sorrento). Neither of us had Iceland on our bucket list, though I must say having been there it is something to see—a lava desert, flat for miles until you reach Reykjavik, where the city is compact, modern, and filled with shops brimming with Icelandic sweaters (yes, I did) and assorted cold-weather gear. Food options are pretty diverse and, if you’re not careful, expensive—we had two nice dinners out and both tipped over £100. But, that said, the food was delicious and I don’t regret a single pence. There are lots of tourists in hiking gear donning backpacks who were not doubt prepared to walk on glaciers and climb volcanic mountains; we stuck with a leisurely walk in the national park where the tectonic plates of North America and Europe meet.


And what is a visit to Iceland without a dip in the Blue Lagoon? The geothermal water spa is about 100 degrees F though there are currents which are hotter or cooler as the water surfaces from 2,000 metres below—we moved around a bit and occasionally paused when a surge of hot water bubbled up. And the lagoon is more milky white than blue; I read it is the silica, algae and a smattering of other minerals that give it that eerie colouring. And, considering the air temperature was probably not more than 20 degrees F, it felt lovely to be submerged to the chin. Tim gave himself a silica mud mask; I sipped a Green is Good concoction which, naturally, is served at a bar in the spa.

I had chance to spend just one day in Edinburgh before heading off to the US of A—a quick work trip but, owing to a four-hour train journey I needed to stay overnight. Arriving in the early evening sunshine I walked around a bit, found the hotel, and then dropped my bag and walked some more—it’s such a lovely city with clean, wide avenues, some nifty old buildings dotting the area and a lovely view of the Firth of Forth (formed by a former glacier, to keep the theme going). And green! I mostly remembered grey, but in the daylight and the sun it transforms into a lovely place to stroll.

I walked until, alas, the wind picked up and the rain started to fall, and found myself in a lovely pub called Tiles where I had a lovely salmon dish and watched the world go by from my high-top table. When Tim and I had last been in Edinburgh it was a bit cold, very wet, and very crowded. In fact seeing the capital on a sunny day I almost didn’t recognise some of the sites we’d walked before. How nice it was to steal a few hours mid-week to see the city, a part of the UK but with a slightly different feel than the edgier London—perhaps I just didn’t see enough of Edinburgh. I suspect a return visit awaits.

And then, the most favourite journey, home. Home is still a funny word—I feel at home in London, but I always feel like where you’re from is where your home is, and so going back to America automatically delivers the word home from my brain to my tongue.

As usual, it was a whirlwind adventure filled with family on both sides, starting with my brother’s family, now ten years in Texas and visiting for my godsons’ high school graduation. I graduated with 67 students in my class; Chris had 960+ classmates that congregated at a football stadium to collect their diplomas. It was lovely even in its largeness. Several of us recorded the announcer as he read Chris’ name; what a proud moment for his parents. I know, I know; the British don’t “get” why graduating high school is such a big deal in the states but it has always been, perhaps going back generations where to make it through that much schooling was not an easy feat.

Catching up with my brother David and the rest of the family, including Elena’s relatives—some of whom travelled from Peru to be there—was really wonderful, despite a bit of a language barrier as my Spanish is poor and many of them don’t speak English—Elena had to do quite a bit of translating, and as ever she did it in good spirit. The Peruvians adore Tim—they find him charming and funny, and no doubt like most foreigners swoon over the British accent!
Hats being tossed by the new graduates!

And it was HOT. You’ve heard me complain before about the lack of a “true” summer in England—the joke is that it usually lasts a week—so going to a warm climate for days on end to let the heat just soak into my skin is always a treat.

It was just as hot traveling to Georgia and Florida, where we met with Tim’s relatives whom he hadn’t seen in, well, let’s just say a long time. Once there, the years melted away and there were numerous stories of when the cousins were growing up, and introductions of all the cousins’ children who are all friendly and polite and seemed genuinely pleased to meet the Brit(s).

We toured peach orchards and farms in Georgia, ate soul food, went to see the Cypress trees resting in the shallow waters shared with alligators (but unfortunately no sightings), and enjoyed the catching up with the relatives, who treated us so wonderfully. Believe what you hear of Southern hospitality!
The warmth and kindness continued on our stay in Jacksonville Beach with Tim’s cousins, who treated us to a great Thai meal at one of the local restaurants, a homemade blueberry crisp, lots of beer and wine, and, best of all, hours of conversation and reminisces. My favourite line came from Brendan, aged 10, who spoke his much-practiced line to Tim: ‘ello, guv’nor!

And then there was the beach. I’d been dreaming of a bit of warm weather holiday, and while we had just three days at Jax Beach, we made the most of it by rising early for a long walk along the sand, having a swim in the ocean where the water temperature made it comfortable to dive right in, and drying off in the shade by the pool, all well before noon so that we could spend the afternoon with the family. I quite liked being immersed in American accents—it’s unlike visiting anywhere in Europe where there is a collection of languages spoken around you; for me it’s just one of those “things” that makes it feel like being back home.


Most certainly one of the highlights was a bit unexpected. A thunderstorm shut down the airport in Jacksonville for a couple of hours, which meant we were going to miss our connection in Newark to get to London overnight. We opted to get at least to Newark if possible, and then board a plane in the morning from there, which meant I could have a quick visit with Robyn. We planned a 6 am breakfast meet at Tops Diner, one of our favourites, figuring a 9 am flight would give us an hour or so to have a coffee and catch up. Upon settling in one of the booths at the diner my phone buzzed—an alert from United that our 9:05 flight was delayed . . . by nine hours. I thought I was misreading it and asked Tim to look, and sure enough it was showing a 6:30 pm departure. Ugh.

Tim called United who said the time posted was an “estimate” and that we ought to show up as it could change. Hugs all around, Robyn dropped us at the Departures entrance and we spent the next several hours as guests of Newark Airport. We tried to coax United into giving us free access to their club, but they would not, so Tim ponied up for the fee and at least we had free wifi and an assortment of drinks and snacks as well as a comfortable chair, free newspapers, and room to play cards. Playing several hands of 21, Rummy, and War got us through the day, along with a nice lunch with our $42 in food vouchers courtesy of customer care. Tim is still drafting his Dear United letter! I sent an email to the CEO, and got a wholly unsatisfactory reply from a Corporate Customer Care person three days later, offering nothing but an apology. United did give us a non-transferable $125 credit on our next flight, to be used within one year. Well, I suppose that’s something, though I suggested they take a more proactive approach to caring for international customers stuck in the airport for innumerable hours. I also was a bit disappointed she didn’t do her research—the tickets were not in my maiden name, but she referred to us as Mr and Mrs using that surname. I’m debating whether to point that out in my reply, LOL.

Fortunately we weren’t in a mad rush to get home, having travelled on the weekend to give ourselves a bit of recuperation before picking up the work pace again. It did mean that Tim’s mum had to delay her arrival to take Tim out to dinner for his birthday, but as ever she simply rolled with it, well travelled and well used to the whims of trains and planes, and came to visit two days later, treating us to a lovely meal at one of our favourite local pubs.


There’s that funny word “home” again. I think it’s quite alright to say that I have two homes, as I have two citizenships and hopefully soon two passports. I don’t love one more than the other; I’m merely privileged to have them both.